Wednesday, July 22, 2009

what's on my mind?

a day to remember..
a day that made me teared..

a day i felt drifted away..
from someone i love.

so many things in my mind..
i can't tink of words to describe..
the pain, the anger, the disappointment, the sadness

alot of bad memories of the past come flashing back to me!

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sometimes i feel that i don't noe him enough..

sometimes i feel i've changed a lot..

sometimes i feel so left out..

sometimes i feel the bond is not strong enough..

sometimes i feel i've given all that i have..
but did i get back what i should have?

sometimes i feel like i'm the happiest girl in the world..
but why in just split seconds i can be the most pathetic soul thrown away and unwanted?

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maybe i should learn how to love myself a little bit more..

maybe i should try to give him some more time..

maybe i should be less demanding..

maybe i should learn how to forgive pple more easily..

maybe i should smile more..

maybe i should not put high hopes on alot of things..

maybe i should not expect too much..

maybe.. maybe.. maybe..

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so many questions in my mind..

did i get married too young?

will i regret in future?

am i really too much?

am i not good enough?

do i really have that much flaws?

am i really the one u should place in your heart?

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jocelyn is definitely not in a happy mood today.

-tears rolls down again-

2 comments:

Jerine said...

Don't think so much. Sometimes thinking too much is the course of people growing apart. What you need to do is do something that can distract you

Jocelyn said...

Jerine : *sighs* ok *hugs*