what's on my mind?

a day to remember..
a day that made me teared..

a day i felt drifted away..
from someone i love.

so many things in my mind..
i can't tink of words to describe..
the pain, the anger, the disappointment, the sadness

alot of bad memories of the past come flashing back to me!

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sometimes i feel that i don't noe him enough..

sometimes i feel i've changed a lot..

sometimes i feel so left out..

sometimes i feel the bond is not strong enough..

sometimes i feel i've given all that i have..
but did i get back what i should have?

sometimes i feel like i'm the happiest girl in the world..
but why in just split seconds i can be the most pathetic soul thrown away and unwanted?

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maybe i should learn how to love myself a little bit more..

maybe i should try to give him some more time..

maybe i should be less demanding..

maybe i should learn how to forgive pple more easily..

maybe i should smile more..

maybe i should not put high hopes on alot of things..

maybe i should not expect too much..

maybe.. maybe.. maybe..

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so many questions in my mind..

did i get married too young?

will i regret in future?

am i really too much?

am i not good enough?

do i really have that much flaws?

am i really the one u should place in your heart?

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jocelyn is definitely not in a happy mood today.

-tears rolls down again-