the sick bitch.

Stress seem to be like a terminal disease that is going to take over my body.

My temper is extremely bad these days and its kinda jeopardizing my daily lifestyle. Guess my temper had done some hurt to people around me and even my close ones. My mother and poor little girl, as well as turkey bacon are the victims for my temper..

*sighs*

I'm still down with fever (temperature taken at 38.6 degrees this morning), a bit of sore throat and body aches. according to the doctor, flu seems to be coming up as well.

Then let me tell u one funny thing.

I'VE GOT NO FUCKING MONEY TO GO AND SEE A DOCTOR!

HAHAHA!

End up i have to call tat idiot who is unable to give me back my money on time to let him know tat i am so sick until i'm really penniless to even go visit a doctor! He keep telling me that he will try his best to find some money to transfer to my bank account, to have enough to at least see a doc first. But i tink by the time the money even comes in, i will be lying in the coffin already.

So guess what?

I have to go dig my mum's wallet and took $30 to go see a doctor first.

HOW PATHETIC CAN I GO?!

it's really damn frustrating when u noe u have money, but u can't spend it. Er.. No. I tink UNABLE to spend it is a much proper word to use. HELL YEAH! i'm not able to spend the money that i have cos some idiots is holding on to it!

So for now, let me curse them to my heart's content!

FUCKING KAN NI NA BEH PUA CHEE BYE!

*screams at high pitch*

ok, i'm cool.. but am still a sick lady.

Everything just can't seem to be right. *rolls eyes*

body engine needs servicing.

alrite, my body engine broke down. currently staying at home today on mc. feeling very cold in office, shivering all the way even though i'm wearing long sleeves and rather thick. Can't stand it anymore so i decided to go and see the doctor.

Weather's been bad recently.. raining almost everyday.. causing the office temperature to be very low. The building central air con is freezing!

Like wat turkey bacon said, "a series of unfortunate events" ..

Yesterday morning, he came down to my place, had b'fast together and then send me to work. Had a very bad start in the morning in office.. following a cork up booking. From 11.15am, i attended the customer all the way until 1pm. After the customer, my mind went blank.

Feeling a bit frustrated and it's even worse when i got no money..!

Yesterday nite had a quarrel (again!) with turkey bacon. Rather serious to the extend we nearly went on seperate ways. But everything is fine again this morning. my bad temper is the main cause of it.

*sighs*

I really don't know what's fucking wrong with me not being able to control my temper. Perhaps it's the stress at work and the pressure of having no money at all.

BAH!!

Everything seems to be in a mess now.

*pulls her hair and screams at high pitch*

Feel so lethargic now..

oh my DOG !

booooooooooooooo ~!!!

Come across this Mazda Car advertisement.. and the lead in this tv ad is a dog. It's so touching that tears actually well up my eyes after watching it. =(

It's about this stray dog and his pup. the stray dog wants his little pup to lead a better life than him..

So... he... (watch on..)



I wish i can have a dog like him.. so full of love. :(

*cries again*

the GAYDIES!

Gaydies = Gay Kiddies.

LOL!!

Happen to see this video on facebook and manage to find it in youtube. Find it damn "sexy" so decided to post it up here and share with u guys. :p

Ya, they DEFINITELY look sexier than me. *laughs out loud*



Work as usual today, but don't know why the heart's not there. No mood to work at all.. *sighs*

Feeling more and more pressurized when people expects more and more from you. Being someone more superior isn't as easy as it seems. You have to balance friendship and work correctly. Being too close to someone at work when u're a superior to her isn't a good thing too. Let me give u an example.

1. After work, the two of u are always very close. In fact the closest among all other colleagues in office. You're her superior at work. So when it comes to work, she might make use of the friendship and ask you to do alot of things for her when the superior actually has the authority to diseminate to people under her to do.
2. Being her superior, you have something that is being passed down to you to inform people under you to do. You do not have a choice and so you did. Telling her the instructions, she gives you the kind of attitude like she doesn't like the extra work being appointed to her. She feels unhappy about it and showed you the kind of look like she's telling you, "wah lao! we're good frens then now trying to act like u can tell me to do things and you don't have to do it yourself!"

So, i really don't noe wat to do.. *frowns*
Sometimes it really seems so difficult.

Clement's advice to me.. "when it's time to be strict, you just have to do it."

Well, I'm already trying my best. I just have to learn and pick things up along the way. I can only hope that everything will turb out fine..