Blame it on me!

yaya, go ahead. blame it on me.

Something happened at work due to me being careless. I admit i can only blame it on myself for being forgetful and didn't do the job well. I dropped an envelope with a sum of money into the safe one night after work forgetting to write the date on the envelope to let my accounts department know which day's sales that amount belonged to.

Initially, they told me that night's cash is short of $1125 and the receipt is with my signature. So if the amount is missing, the only person to look for is ME. yes, i cried over it cos i'm feeling nervous and lost. Cos i remember i did drop every single cent into the safe. So how could it be possible that the amount will vanish in mid air?! I spent my lunch time thinking super hard where tat stupid amount went to. and for this, i've lost appetite for lunch and definitely not in the mood to work for the rest of the day.

A few hours later, they broke the news to me that the amount is being found. Definitely i felt relieved. (Well, who won't?!) but then, new rules applied. We have to do one more extra step before we can leave office (for duty officers only).

Then the best part is here..

it's 8.15pm and i'm packing up my stuffs preparing to go home. Closed my drawer and stood up and Candise passed a casual remark saying, "It's all because of Jocelyn's one mistake and we're both (Candise and Karen) dragged down to do this unnecessary things for closing." Well, I know she says it just casually and she might not mean anything. But i do feel some pain inside. I'm affected with wat she said.

OH FUCK!

it's ok.. i'm FINE! maybe tomorrow will be better.

7 weird secrets...

Oh no ~ I've been tagged by Kev to list down 7 weird things about myself.. In this case, i will have to leak out my darkest secrets.... *screams*

Here are the rules. To tag along: you have to list 7 weird things about yourself, post it in your blog, tag at least 7 people (list their names), comment on their blog to let them know that you just tagged them.

So.. here goes...

1. i love people to stroke my eye brows to make me sleep.
2. i love to eat anything that's made of potatoes.
3. i like to bite people.
4. i prefer snooker than pool.
5. mahjong is my favourite past time.
6. i like to drink salty instant noodles' soup but i don't like my french fries with salt.
7. i sometimes wish i can sleep and nv wake up.

So the next 7 people i'm going to tag will be :

1. Christine
2. Simon
3. Terry
4. Jasmine
5. Cathy
6. ahmike
7. Weijie

Ok! Mission accomplished!

CONTINUED...

I just got home from CHOMP CHOMP. Had dinner with Fanny, Juliet and Jerina there. am on winning streaks recently and they helped me alot at work, so i've decided to bring them there and give them a treat! Ordered alot of food again and was too bloated to even finish my glass of lime juice. I must really kowtow to all the 3 of them to finish tat super big glass of sugarcane juice! -_______-"

Saw a very very cute dog when i was waiting for a cab home.. I do not know what breed is that but tat dog has really short legs. So kawaii lor ! Hahahaha! Sudden urge to buy a pet dog too but thinking of the expenses need to take care of it made me erase the thoughts. Going to the vet, buying dog food, pet grooming.. OMG! *wake up jocelyn wake up!*

Haven't had sufficient sleep for a very long time.. and finally tomorrow is my off day.. so, the conclusion is....

I CAN SLEEP FOR THE WHOLE DAY!! YAY!!!!!!!

Should i even talk at all?

Today is like not really a day for me. Full of hiccups.. Feeling frustrated about alot of things. It all started with a question asked by me.

In the late morning.. received a msg from melvin, telling me that he will take half day leave to return early to rest. So, out of curiosity, i asked if the company will be unhappy about it when he takes half day leave out of a sudden. Then cos of this issue, we had a slight arguement. Maybe i shouldn't have asked the question huh?

then continued working and had a meeting with the boss regarding the thailand issue. Due to the political problem like riots etc over in chiangmai and bangkok, the number of people who booked to bangkok dropped tremendously. *sighs*

after the meeting, Christine brought up the topic regarding the sales report. Cos all three of us (Candise, Karen & myself) feel that doing the daily sales report is like doing double jobs. Cos the report can be found with the computer system. And alot of times, Fanny and Ann will ask me to print out the weekly sales report for them to key in all over again into an Excel File. So u see wat i mean by doing double job? Cos it's like... it can be retrieved fromthe system! And Karen even commented, "then wat is the system there for?" Christine then asked me if i brought this matter up to Clement and i told her that no point bringing up as the reply from him is kinda expected. And they told me that i should try. Ok fine.. i tried doing so.

Sat down at Clement's desk and I started the conversation..

Me: "Clement, do u tink we can stop doing the daily sales report?"
Clement: "NO!"
Me: "But don't you feel that it's kinda redundant when the report can be retrieved from the OB system itself?"
Clement: "When we ask you to do the report, we got our reasons behind it. Firstly, all of u can see how u progress everyday by keying it in a daily basis."
Me: "In that case i can print out the daily report retrieved from the system and give out to them and they can see from there already ma."
Clement: (open up an excel file with our report typed in) "You see, from here, we can see the breakdown of the package price, airport tax, fuel charge etc."
Me: "But according to wat we are selling now, 90% of our package price is INCLUSIVE of fuel charges. So how accurate can all this package price be?"
Clement: ...
Me: "I'm saying this to you is because i feel that all the counter staffs must be feeling very tired, having to stay back to finish their report even after work. Fanny even asked me to go back office early to help her open the door on a sunday when we can actually start work later because she needs to go in early to complete her report! So alot of time is taken."
Clement: "We asked all of u to do report really got our reasons behind it one..."
Me: "So what other reasons other than being able to see our daily progress?"
Clement: ...

So you see? He can't give me a valid reason. Then I knew this topic will not get a answer which i wish to hear.

Me: (stands up and going to walk away) "take it that i nv ask u this question before."
Clement: "So what is the meaning of this?"
Me: Nothing lah. Just take it that i nv ask u this before lor!"

The conversation ended with both of us rather heated up. So i went back to my seat and trying really very hard to control my temper before i explode. Called up Fanny to talk to her and at the same time trying very hard to cool down. But no matter how hard I try, i still can't hold back my tears. SHIT!

I dunno why my tears always rolls down whenever i feel very angry and agitated. my body will also tremble and my whole head will get very hot.. hot to the extend that both my ears will turn RED!

Both unhappy incident all started with just one QUESTION. it makes me tink if problem arises next time, should i bring it up and talk about it? Or should i just keep quiet and take it like nothing has happened.. What should i do to avoid unpleasant moments?

Should I even talk at all?

Calories BURNT during SEX

CALORIES BURNED DURING SEX !
REMOVING HER CLOTHES:
With her consent	12 Calories
Without her consent	2,187 Calories
OPENING HER BRA:
With both hands	8 Calories
With one hand	12 Calories
With your teeth	485 Calories
PUTTING ON A CONDOM:
With an erection	6 Calories
Without an erection	3,315 Calories
POSITIONS:
Missionary	12 Calories
69 lying down	78 Calories
69 standing up	812 Calories
Wheelbarrow	216 Calories
Doggy Style	326 Calories
Italian chandelier	2,912 Calories
ORGASMS:
Real	112 Calories
Fake	1,315 Calories
POST ORGASM:
Lying in bed hugging	18 Calories
Getting up immediately	36 Calories
Explaining why you got out of bed immediately	816 Calories
GETTING A SECOND ERECTION:
If you are:
20-29 years	36 Calories
30-39 years	80 Calories
40-49 years	124 Calories
50-59 years	1,972 Calories
60-69 years	7,916 Calories
70 and over	Results are still pending
DRESSING AFTERWARDS:
Calmly..	32 Calories
In a hurry	98 Calories
With her father knocking at the door	5,218 Calories
With your wife knocking at the door	13,521 Calories
Results may vary !
THERE’S A LOT OF SADNESS IN THE WORLD
Right now, as you read this,
69 Million People are having SEX !
And you’re on the computer !!! Just read this from an email and find it very funny and wanted to share with all the readers. Haha! So how much calories do u intend to burn later? =x

Priceless words..

As i'm typing this entry.. tears tears rolled down from my eyes.. having a lot of mixed feelings inside me.. Disappointed, sad, alone, lost, helpless...

Recieved a phone call from him and felt happy for a moment when he told me he wanted to come over. The first thing that came into my mind was "yay! i miss my hubby so much! finally can see him tonite le!" but then, he changed his mind after he heard someone whom he do not wish to see is in my house playing mahjong with another 3 guys..

Let me tell you a story which i happen to see it from an old old email.

PRICELESS WORDS

A husband wakes up at home with a huge hangover. He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins and a glass of water on the side table. He sits down and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotless and clean. So is the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins and notices a note on the table. "Honey, breakfast is on the table, I left early to go grocery shopping. Love you!"

Totally shocked with the note, he goes to the kitchen and sure enough there is a hot breakfast and the morning newspapers. His son is also at the table, eating. He asks, "Son, what happened last night?" His son says, "Well, you came home around 3am, drunk and delirious. Broke some crockery, puked on the hall, and gave yourself a black eye when you stumbled into the door." Confused, the man asks, "So why is everything in order and so clean, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me? I should expect a big quarrel with her!" His son replies, "Oh, that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she tries to take your clothes and shoes off, you said, "LADY!! LEAVE ME ALONE! I'M MARRIED!!"


Moral :-

• Self-induced hangover - $400.00
• Broken crockery - $800.00
• Breakfast - $10.00
• Saying the right thing while drunk?? - PRICELESS

I feel that those words are really words that you can't use money to buy!! No matter how fucking god damn rich you are. Cos it's really words that comes straight from the heart..

To Melvin,
I wanna let you know that I won't leave you. I know you're angry, upset, frustrated, jealous, disappointed or whatever, I know that. I really know. I truly understand how you feel and I don't blame you for that. If I wanna leave you, I would have done so a very long time ago. Why would I wanna go through all those bad experiences for the past 1yr+ having to stay apart with my own husband and let outsiders giving me a kinda look like i'm some sorta unwanted stray cats? It's really feels awful deep down inside my heart. All i need is just some trust and confidence.. and perhaps.. a chance.

Diarrhea ATTACK!!!

Omg.. After the Tom Yam instant noodle.. I've tummy aches from last nite 4am++ all the way until now.. *cries* wake up 4 times in the middle of my sleep before my alarm wakes me up to get ready for work.. And that's still not the end.. When i'm at work, i went to the toilet for 7 more times... After work, went to Plaza Singapura with Karen, Ann and Fanny.. Entered the toilet ONE MORE TIME! then finally home again... ran to the toilet straight after i came out from the lift. SUCKS! Wat's wrong with my stomache man ~!

If some pple do not know wat diarrhea means..

**In medicine, diarrhea, also spelled diarrhoea, is frequent loose or liquid bowel movements.

Feeling HORRIBLE! trust me. :(

Applied medicated oil to my tummy ... hope it will feel better later and hoping to get a good nite sleep tonite *cross fingers*

Whenever people falls ill, 95% of them blames on the weather.. the remaining 5% are those who admitted that they didn't drink enough water or being spread by other people etc. Recently the flu bug is still having a pretty good life within my office premises. More and more people getting sick. Now that i'm recovering, Candise's at it again. And just now Karen is having the syptoms of getting sick AGAIN! (she just recovered not long ago.. and now she's at it. poor girl)

Can you all just imagine, just typing half way through this entry.. I ran to the toilet to do that watery business again ??? It's really a PAIN i tell u. *pulls her hair and high pitch screams* ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Feel like cursing those EVIL germs and virus and diseases and illness and pains and aches and simply EVERYTHING that's causing the discomforts caused to all people in pain.

21 things Girls Don't Know About Guys.

Went out at 7.10pm yesterday to find Fanny, Clement and Ann to go out and eat. As promised, the 3 of us gave Clement a treat for helping us propose for a pay increment and also helping us in many other ways. Then, just nice boss left his car for clement to drive, it's a convertible. Ok lah, the car looks cool but i've nv sat on a car driven by Clement before and further he just got his license not long ago. So... *shrugs*

On the way walking to the carpark to get the vehicle, we're discussing on where to eat. Then the final decision was... CHOMP CHOMP! Clement clled up to check with his outside friends on how to drive there cos he haven't been there before so he do not know the directions. LOL!

Got up the car and he removed the hood. Fanny and Ann sat behind and i sat in front. Then.... Off he go ~ I was looking at the side mirror and I kept laughing cos Fanny's hair is flying here and there like one mad woman who ran out from some mental hospital. bwahahahaha!!!

Actually, along the way, i kept holding on to the safety belt cos Clement steps on the accelerator for so many times, and frankly speaking... IT REALLY FELT SO SCARY! >.<" We manage to find the place in less than 15min! Damn the place was crowded. We have to find a seat.. Everywhere is occupied so gotta stand at one corner to wait for the patrons to finish their food so that we can take the empty seats lor.. Settled down after a short wait and ordered food.. We got ourselves Satay, BBQ Stingray, La-La, Chicken Wings and Kueh Pai-Ti ~ All these food are not so expensive but definitely a YUMMY thing to go into our stomach. ordered the gigantic glass of drink again and as usual, Fanny's the one getting the biggest glass. LOL~ Went home after that and read an email from Kakashi- about "21 things girls do not know about guys". details below :- 21 things girls don't realize about guys

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

*If they truly care about the girl so why would they wanna go flirt around in the first place? why don't spend the time they flirt around with other girls on the girl he cares about? wierdos.

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

*I feel that different guys handle relationships in different ways. Not all guys will take that long to forget about it and move on with life.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile(:

*this i agree. I've witnessed one before. Even Kokster will go crazy over the mentioning of Ann's name =x

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

*Hmm.. alot of girls will think likewise too. (so guys, pls take note if u do not know)

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

*Ok, that's cute. LOL!

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

*er hur....

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

*But there are also some dumb guys making stupid jokes to tease a girl and the outcome backfires.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

*How do know if the girl do not love u more than you love them? HOW DO U GAUGE?!!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

*Oh i see.

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

*But why would he wanna do something stupid in front of the girl ??

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

*Oh I See..

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is.Guys rarely say that

*But there are also times when the guy is a flirt. He will say that line all the time as well.

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me

*Ok, the girls acted like this too sometimes.

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

*Er hur... My husband's like this too.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

*Thinking about wat? How to eat u? LOL

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

*So that's why girls are behaving like this. Cos guys love them..!

17)A guy would give the world anything to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

*wow.. u serious?! Gimme all the money the world earns and i will let u read my mind for a day!

18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

*Hmm... this sounds so familiar..

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them

*But most of the guys still ARE!

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

*this is so like those dating-period. Once married all these will not happen again. trust me. i'm a victim. LOL

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life

*Well, this applies to girls too.

So, how do u feel after reading it?

Do U go... "er... Crap~"Deep in thoughts?
Or you are like "OH?! wow.."

When was the last time...

Feeling better again today, somehow my voice is coming back already. At least not as sore as yesterday anymore. YAY! there is one customer who falls in love with my nails and keep bugging me where i do my nails today and say my nails are really really nice ~ *double yay!* :p

Actually I just got home not long ago. Heard from Yongrong that he got a cheap server for iRadio to let us host as and when we feel the itch for hosting. haha! so do check out for my msn nick if i'm on air to hear me DJ ok?!

Just finish my shower and had my late dinner. Things were rather smooth today at work except for one customer who made a booking from Ann came to make a big fuss out of one small little visa application issue. Then with a balance amount which she doesn't wanna pay due to Ann giving her a wrong information upon booking.

She's off today so the customer sat in front of me. Shouting away and not giving me a chance to explain things to her. It's like... Hello?! I'm trying to help u rectify things there. and you this old bitch is there making such a big BOOBOO out of a small little stupid piece of shit.

*sighs* Moving on...

Suddenly.. I feeling a bit emo again. Like there's a lot of things haven't been done for a very long time.

when was the last time u said u love me? when was the last time u buy me gifts of surprise? when was the last time u stayed by my side to take care of me when i was sick? when was the last time we went for a short getaway? when was the last time we sit down together to have a good chat? when was the last time.....

Seems like there is just too many to list out... *sighs again*

yes i'm BACK!

Yeah... after 2 days of being sick and resting at home, i'm now back on the TRACK!

yeap, returned to the usual routine. Wake up and go to office this morning, feeling better. Definitely feeling better than yesterday but weaker than normal still. Sales isn't so good today, in fact very bad compared to last week's thursday.

my voice sounded so "sexy" today until alot of customers can't really hear me clearly when i'm giving them the package price. Oh yah! there are 3 customers who commented that i've got pretty nails~ LOL!

Already drank alot of water.. hope my voice will be better tmr. *fingers cross*

Recieved a good news from Mdm Low today in regards to my salary, or should i say my team's salary. Yeap, there is some minor adjustments to it. An increment of cause! *applause* All thanks to our Leader, Clement. Even though the moment isn't very great, but it's still the thought and the effort of him trying to help us propose for a pay increment that counts. So, Fanny, Ann and myself decided to give him a treat to thank him. But that will have to wait till I recover so that we can eat something better and more delicious! *giggles*

Yesterday after sleeping for so so so so so long.... I got nothing to do so i went surfing on the net and then stepped onto Sony Ericsson's webby. Then guess what? A new phone model caught my attention. C905 ~ It's not lauched yet but according to the site it states that it's coming out soon. Can't wait to OWN ONE!!! It's 8.1 mega pixels camera ~ wooo hoooo! then i can cam whore until siao! =x

Just take a peep at the video ~ it makes me want it even more ~ >.<"

Moody..

This will be another moody post.

I wonder is it because of the fever and bodyaches that is resulting to me being so emo yesterday and today. And cos of this stupid emo mood, i quarrelled with someone very dear to me. Somehow the words i used could have hurt him deeply but there are also words that cuts deep into my heart that comes out from him.

I dunno what's with this stupid fever! It just doesn't seem to subside.. No matter how long i sleep, no matter how much i rest, no matter how obedient i am to take those medications punctually, it just doesn't seem to get any better!!! *pouts*

Somehow i feel tat i am so ke lian. Got fever and there is no one by my side.. to comfort me.. to put ice cold towel on my forehead to make the fever go away.. *sighs*

When i was in the shower just now, my bracelet suddenly slips down from my wrist and drops on the floor! its just broke on its own? hmm... is this a bad omen or wat? feeling very not at ease.

Saw an email sent to me today in regards to Man and Woman. It somehow manage to bring a smile on my face for today.

Woman has Man in it;
Mrs. has Mr . in it;
Female has Male in it;
She has He in it;
Madam has Adam in it;
No wonder men always want to be inside women!

Men were born between the legs of a woman, yet men spend all their life and time trying to go back between the legs of a woman....
Why?
BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME


Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now.....
I never looked at it this way before:


Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?


MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnecologist
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble, it's a
HISterectomy.

Hope it manage to bring a smile on ur face too like how it did to me :)

I feel so weak..

Went to see the doctor early this morning after knowing that i'm having fever. Whole body joints ache like F***! it's really aching like nobody's business. Took some more pills for fever and bodyache and left the office at about 1025hrs.

Ate my b'fast so that i can take my pills after i reach home, then 1130hrs i totally knocked out again! sleep and sleep until 1920hrs~ It's not getting any better.. I don't know why.. My body still burning hot and aching like how it feels this morning. Is it cos the company doctor's medications is not strong enough for me? If tomorrow i'm still not getting any better, i might go to another private clinic to do a check on me and prescribe me something stronger to make me recover faster.. *frowns*

Today, i suddenly feel like whatever I do, i'm not appreciated. Then something came into my mind.. I feel.. There will be a point in your life when u get tired of fixing everything and trying to maske everyone happy. When u finally decided to quit, it's NOT giving up. It's realising that you don't need certain people and the bullshit they bring into your life.

I feel so so weak.. No strength and power to do anything. So many things not within my control, so many things that i can't accomplish.. so many.. there are just so many.. *sighs* i'm like so EMO now. :(

I just feel.. like.. crying..

FLU BUG ATTACK!!!!

oh my god... i'm now DOWN WITH THAT HORRID FLU ~ *sniffs*

kena attacked by the flu bug that is surviving in our office for quite some time.. first is karen, then passed to candise, then passed to June, then now i'm the next victim. *frowns*

Woke up this morning, i'm still fine.. just that feeling a lil' lethargic.. don't really feel like getting off my bed and everything was fine.. reached office and i'm ok still !! but when it is about 3pm, 3 sneezes in a row and the next thing is... RUNNING NOSE!! initially i thought it was just a normal sneeze then my nose just ran non-stop, running further and further away ~ so, seeing me sniffing away, sneezing as well, cleaning all the boo boo off my nose, my manager asked me to quickly go visit the company doctor since its only the starting of it. So quickly get the medications, take them and it might be able to recover faster.

Popping the pills make me feel rather drowsy.. totally no mood to work. feeling rather lazy and sick.

Just finish eating my dinner and took the medications again. I guess i will knock out soon..

FLU FLU GO AWAY ~~~ I hate running nose! *sniffs and sneezes*

hmmm.... or should i eat an apple tomorrow just like the say that always goes..."An apple a day, keeps the doctor away.." ?? haha!